Last night was filled with horrible nightmares. I must have woken up in cold sweat at least three times. And each time I fell back asleep it just got worse. I couldn't breathe there wer horrible noises all around me.

I should have known something like this was happening. And it still hasn't sunk in.

I just don't understand it.

I couldn't go to classes. I just sat here all day and did nothing. But try and understand.

Why can't I? Why couldn't he?